Every single thing that I do is part of my master plan of spreading positivity and happiness throughout the world. There might be times when it might sound like I am being self-centered or trying to toot my own horn. When I’m talking about the amazing things happening in my life I am simply publicity sharing my gratitude. I’m trying to show others that good things do come, even when we are facing struggles. I want to give others hope that we all can have amazing things happen in our lives. This quote from the Alma in The Book of Mormon really resonates how I feel:
“I do not boast in my own strength, nor in my own wisdom; but behold, my joy is full, yea, my heart is brim with joy, and I will rejoice in my God. Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea, behold, many mighty miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever.”
I’m driven with an energy I’ve never felt before. This is not only relatively new, but the intensity of this energy keeps increasing as I grow in the Gospel. I give up sleep. I put off things for myself when others need me. I sometimes even skip meals because I’m so busy. Why do I do these things?
I’ve been there. I’ve struggled. I grew up being shy and quiet. I was picked on and even bullied when I was younger. My Mom passed. I failed out of my university program during my final semester after nine years of time and effort. My Dad passed. I began feeling like I was never going to amount to anything. I went through a mentally and verbally abusive relationship. I was let go from a job that I loved.
A few years ago I decided to commit the rest of my life towards helping others not have to go through the struggles that I have gone through. Through overcoming my trials I had to again find happiness. God has blessed me with an intelligence that I never thought I would possess that I can use to remember many things with precision. I remember the steps needed to overcome my trials and again find happiness, and I dedicate as much of my free time towards helping others do the same in their own lives.
Also, I haven’t forgotten what it’s like to go through those trials. I remember what it felt like. I remember the things I did. I remember the things I said.
When I’m helping others I am able to recognize when they start to slip into an unhealthy / self-defeating mindset, and I know how to snap them out of it. I know where they are going, and I know that I need to keep them from slipping into dangerous territory.
I know that God has put me here on this Earth to help others. Yeah, I could have gone to school and earned degrees showing that I know this stuff. However, I instead enrolled in the school of life. God has been my personal trainer. Every trial I have gone through was part of His design. He knew that I needed these experiences. He knew what I would gain from them, and He knew how they would prepare me to help others. My education has come from living out my life, facing struggles, making decisions that would cause me to not progress, and ultimately having an awakening.
I have found joy. I still have my struggles. I still have a ton to learn. I will NEVER claim that I know everything. However, there are certain things that I know with an unquestionable certainty. I feel it so strongly in my heart. I know that this wisdom is a gift from God.
God has blessed me with many gifts. It is my job to magnify these talents so that I may bless the lives of others. It’s not about self-glorification. I really do not care about public recognition. It’s all about self-fulfillment. “Have I done any good in the world today?” The hymn continues, “Doing good is a pleasure, a joy beyond measure, A blessing of duty and love.”
Thank you for reading this. I love you all.